sudden

after almost 9 years starting writing blog.

I dont know how to describe it--

So many days so many times  felt to write something ,scratching something on laptop.

in this hectic life where time seems to be more precious  than diamond it is difficult to spend time for mere writing.

nation is passing through hard time..a very hard time. I am not so optimistic. even being a supporter of present govt I feel the distance.

Distance of what?

Distance of ideology. Distance of believe in societal weave . in every situation Govt is so absolute. 

few days back i saw in dream that i m a soldier and I was fighting in a war.

my family is anxious ..I was tensed as I always am.

once day started passing by I used to get lonely.one by one my every friend left me..i was afraid. uncertainty loomed over my daily life..I woke up

for some moments I put myself into their shoes..